One morning I was walking going to work. I felt disappointed with no clear reasons. I feel gloomy while the sun shining with excitement. Mesmerizing the past into a kaleidoscope of ambivalence. Randomly confused.
After I graduate in College I passed all the licensure examinations not just in the Philippines but also in the United States. With no intention to brag but just a random thinking at this spur moment. I passed those examinations with outstanding results, God is always kind. Now, I am taking my masters degree at the University of the Philippines. Randomly thankful.
I felt I am losing myself, decaying my mental potency, and loosing the brilliance of blessings. 2005 and 2006 was my best year. The perfect year that God gave me. It all reached the boiling point that stunned me to halt dreaming and achieving. There might be missing in me right now that my decisions went erratic. Randomly feeling something.
Maybe I need to reflect more to fixed this erroneous circuitry in my synapses. I have to find myself and re-path my way. Walking straight forward to the right destination. To finish what I had started, and end it with a purpose. As much as possible I don't want to be a looser twisting my dream into a crap. Randomly lost.
To dream is freedom, to believe is a chance, to survive is a choice. Randomly thinking.